A random thought shot across my mind.
What if…let’s just say, what if… what if I knew today would be the last day of my life?
Now that makes me think about lots of things.
Joonie, you idiot, it’s obviously not the last day of your life!
Oh but, you never know. You could die from a car crash tomorrow or maybe a storm will come along and the lightning will strike you dead.
But I have only done so less with my life.
I’ve lived under this roof doing what? Nothing. Okay, maybe I have done some. Like study and bond with people, but everyone does that.
What I want…is to do things that people won’t normally do.
I want to do things before it’s too late.
I wanna do things that are DIFFERENT.
Oh, I know my words are not very powerful right now (and maybe very naive) but I really do mean it?
However, I feel very disheartened when I come to think about the things I might want to do. I can’t seem to find an area to focus on that I might want to accomplish. Maybe I want to do a little bit of everything? But that seems a bit greedy…
I can’t wait till I am 18 and ain’t under the control of my guardians.
When I’m 18, I’ll be able to do whatever I want, literally. At least I won’t need permission to go out anymore aye? And if I can go out more, then I might be lucky enough to stumble across what I’m looking for.
And I’ll keep you guys updated when I find out what that something is (:<
JOONIE
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