Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Major Change May Be Headed My Way

Hello everynya~n…

If you’ve read my previous post, you saw that I made a statement about how my parents and I might fight for the right to get me enrolled in the school with my friends.

Well, apparently, there’s more to it than I thought.

We might be moving. Again. Yes, that’s right. We might be moving to a smaller house.

There’s also more to that, too, but I won’t get into it.

I… *Shaoow…* I’m going to re-write the lyrics of ”All the Things She Said” to ”All School’s Put Me Through.” I mine-as-well work on that now, since I’m not doing anything else at the moment…

…Now, let’s see here…

All school’s put me through

All school’s put me through

Running through my head

Running through my head

Running through my head

(Running through my head)

All school’s put me through

All school’s put me through

Running through my head

Running through my head

(Running through my head)

I have had enough

I’m in serious shit, I feel totally lost

If I’m asking for help it’s only because

Being alone has opened my eyes

Could I ever believe such a horrid surprise?

I keep asking myself, wondering how

I keep closing my eyes but I can’t block this out

Wanna fly to a place where it’s just I and me

Nobody else so I can be free

Nobody else so I can be free

All school’s put me through

All school’s put me through

Running through my head

Running through my head

Running through my head

(Running through my head)

All school’s put me through

All school’s put me through

Running through my head

Running through my head

All school’s put me through

All school’s put me through

(All school’s put me through)

I have had enough

I have had enough

All school’s put me through

All school’s put me through

And I’m all mixed up, feeling cornered and rushed

They say it’s my fault but I want out so much

Wanna fly myself away where the sun and rain

Come in over my face, wash away all the shame

When they stop and stare – it worries me

‘Cause I’m feeling hatred what they’re feeling towards me

I can try to pretend, I can try to forget

But it’s driving me mad, going out of my head

All school’s put me through

All school’s put me through

Running through my head

Running through my head

Running through my head

All school’s put me through

All school’s put me through

Running through my head

Running through my head

All school’s put me through

All school’s put me through

I have had enough

I have had enough

All school’s put me through

All school’s put me through

All school’s put me through

All school’s put me through

All school’s put me through

All school’s put me through

All school’s put me through

All school’s put me through, me through

All school’s put me through

All school’s put me through

Mother looking at me

Tell me what do you see?

Yes, I’ve lost my mind

Daddy looking at me

I will never be free.

I have crossed the line

All school’s put me through

All school’s put me through

Running through my head

Running through my head

Running through my head

All school’s put me through

All school’s put me through

Running through my head

Running through my head

All school’s put me through

All school’s put me through

I have had enough

I have had enough

All school’s put me through

All school’s put me through

All school’s put me through

All school’s put me through

All school’s put me through

All school’s put me through.

Wow. I barely changed much, but it seems to me that I have done quite a good job. Maybe I’ll even record it just for the hell of having a little momentum for myself of how FUCKY SCHOOL IS.

Which would be courtesy of ‘Audicity.’ I love that program, how you can record your voice on the MAC with the webcam and edit it. I did a thing with one of the Hell Girl OSTs, but I deleted it a real long time ago.

It went a little something like this:

I will come and get you,

Silently but yes.

I will come and get you,

Take your last breath.

Aaand I never got any further. And don’t plan on it. I creep myself out sometimes. Hah.

ANYWAY… Can’t wait to dye my hair this Friday!! Looking forward to it!! I actually have a little dye in the crevice of my elbow or w/e. I had to put it there last night, and for 48 hours, for an allergy test. So far, nothing, which is good. Very happy I’m not allergic to it.

If I was, so help me…

Also, check out the lyrics for ‘Murmurs: You Suck.’ I could also use that song as a shout out to aaall the little bitches and bastards at this Hellhole I am forced to attend 5/7 days a week. FUCK. YOU. ALL. IF. YOU. EVER. SEE. THIS. *Flips off*

But if you’re NOT one of my school mates, I love you. *Smiles* But I’m not a creepy stalker. Just an antisocial teen that likes fan fiction, reading, writing, and making fun of people I hate.

And are on my ‘Wall of Shame.’ YES, I DO HAVE ONE. Jesus…

My parents keep bugging me like, “What are you going to be?” …No answer from me. “Come on, we’re going to find out anyway.”

They’re referring to KRP. They have really no idea about it, except the hair dye part. I just reply with: “It’s not really a person… Well, it is but it’s not. And you might be able to figure it out, and you might not.”

Aren’t I a genius? Full blown amazing Einstein?

Of course I’m not! Thank you for that compliment, loves!! Free non-alcoholic beverages for everyone!! *Passes out drinks*

I’ve started drawing again. I stopped for the longest time, and just started again. Even if it’s just stupid little doodles, I am drawing again. And am improving every step of the way.

Apparently, I am God at drawing cats, according to my friends. Maybe I’ll have to scan a pick of one I drew 2 years back or something…

I remember when I was in 4th grade. *Sigh* When the years were still good. I had this scrap piece of paper that I drew little different themed cats on. I remember my classmates passing by and asking “Did you draw those?”

I think I became known as ‘the one who draws cats well for her age’ or something, because I remember doing a project on Ben Franklin, and my group wanted me to draw a Ben Frank. kitty. I was like, “How the fuck am I going to do that?”

So I didn’t. I can’t remember anything else, except to this day, I still have the piece of scrap hanging in my bedroom on the wall. There’s a Pumpkin Kitty, Infant Kitty, Doctor Kitty, Devil Kitty… Too many to name. I’d have to go get the paper and type everything up.

But I’m too lazy to do that. Plus, I’d rather not take a dip so far back into the past.

Even though I had a good past back then.

But the past from 2- years up until right now when I’m typing this totally sucks and sucked.

Rawr. Screw it all, man. Screeeew it all.

No field trip today, peeps. Sorry!! I have to eat dinner soon, then visit my great grandfather [Oh my] then come back and do homework that I can with what I have.

Oh. Did I mention?? I missed school today. Major headache, fever, and the usual ‘blahh’ feeling of being sick.

Good-bye, and watch Soul Eater! I recommend it!

-Taylaa~–

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